Saturday, August 30, 2003

LABOR GAINS

Taste the joy, that springs from labor- Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

When I stopped by the hospital this week to see Lexie and Madeline, the maternity ward bedside discussion took the inevitable turn toward the actual birthing process.
I have never been present in the delivery room for the birth of a child, but I've had a few of these discussions. Most are usually along the lines of, "Men don't know anything about pain, you should try squeezing a watermelon out of something the size of a quarter."

My kids are my stepchildren so I missed out on the joys of labor, and I might add the diaper years. In retrospect, and in all honesty, that seems like a fair trade off to me.

Anyway, Lexie's labor was easy. NOTE: easy is the word Lexie used not me. I'm probably breaching confidence by even mentioning it since we both agreed that if she brought up the ease of Madeline's delivery with someone who had actually given birth it would provoke a horror story along the lines of, "I was in labor for 67 hours, the hospital air conditioning was out, and the anesthesiologist became a practicing member of NarcAnon the same morning I was admitted."

Lexie's experience, and this being Labor day weekend, started me thinking about labor pains I have experienced.

The torment of laboring under self delusion and the punishing pangs of trying to keep that realization buried beneath denial.
The searing misery of failure brought about by pride, and my own refusal to truly work, at my first marriage.
The distress of laboring to spare your kids the pains you've endured, but then having to acknowledge that some lessons everyone must learn for themselves.
I've also, of course, had the more common aches, strains, and one hernia resulting from attempts to shoulder more physical labor than my increasingly saggy physical specimen will allow.

This week, however, was a good one for labor pains. Lexie's were minimal, and mine were few.

Our church property has a prosperousness of potential, but truthfully, we lack people willing to do much of the work. We have an abundance of "idea" people, but not as many "let's sweat" people. My close friend, Ben, has reminded me often that this is one of God's many ways of teaching me patience.

On Wednesday, I drove up to the church to find one of our members, Charles, putting plants around our church sign. We've had the sign since the church was built and the rock work around it was designed to hold plants, but we've never put any there. Charles took it upon himself to make the sign his project. He went into great detail about how he had chosen the plants so that they might survive not only the punishing South Texas heat, but also our congregation's penchant for neglect. It was wonderful to hear his plans and see his enthusiasm. It was even more joyous to see him actually acting upon his vision.

I have had my labor for my travail; ill-thought-on of her, and ill-thought-on of you; gone between and between, but small thanks for my labor.
- William Shakespeare

Don't get me wrong, I enjoy working on the church property, even if I'm working alone, but that hasn't always been the case. I've stumbled into the trap of resentfulness, when there have been large tasks to do with few or no volunteers. Some time ago though I found a place of peace. I recognized that to me such work is a form of a worship. Why would I resent someone for not worshiping God the way I do? Would I want to be held to their standard of worship? I could no more force my perceptions upon someone else, than I could force them to pray.

I should make clear my ascent to this self professed lofty plateau is hardly noble. It is wrought in part out of necessity (I've been down the road of denial remember?). It's still my philosophy that if you can't work joyfully or at least diligently for God than you haven't had enough crappy bosses in your life. I've apparently already had the required quota.

This morning, however, was also wonderful. I went to the church as part of the ongoing and somewhat futile war of the weeds and found my friend Jerry already there unloading his riding lawnmower (there's a lesson in coveting here I'm just going to skip), and then my friend Sam drove up with his weed-eater. They were anxious to labor, and we got it done.

In the process, we enjoyed each other's company, we worshiped...and we served God.

Works for me.

Ecclesiastes 5:12
The sleep of a laborer is sweet

Friday, August 29, 2003

GIVE ME A T...GIVE ME AN R

It didn't take long for Arnold Schwartzenegger to start acting like a politician.

When confronted with the insipid, raunchy, hormone-driven remarks from a 1977 interview Arnold came up with this brilliant piece of spin:

"I have no memory of any of the articles I did 20 or 30 years ago."

If it's any consolation, I hear he's already fired his Director of Public Relations:



Maybe I'm weird, but I have never thought less of someone for telling me the truth.

Arnold was 29 in 1977. A jock. Being interviewed by a porn magazine.

If I were his Director of Public Relations I would have let him say much the same thing, I would only have added a few words.

" I wish I had no memory of any articles I did 20 or 30 years ago, but I do remember making those stupid remarks. Thank God for the wisdom that comes with age. I ask for forgiveness for being young and stupid. I assure you I am no longer either."

MAD GIRL

I met Miss Madeline today and she waved.



Okay, maybe she was actually waving me off while screaming, "Get him out of here!" Who knows? She's one day old and I don't speak baby.

She cried as soon as I stuck my face into her reality...the sad truth is she's not the first woman to do that...although she does get the award for being the quickest study. So far.

Thursday, August 28, 2003

THANKS, I NEEDED THAT

I came into work this morning and was greeted by chaos. That's not too unusual, but normally it's the chaos of society at large, not the calamity of confusion within our own newsroom. Our I.T. department (what does I.T. stand for anyway? Incompetent & Traumatic? Inept but Trying? Inaccessible & Tragic?) had notified me a few weeks ago that they would be making a system change "which would take the computers down for a few minutes." We agreed to schedule it for eight o'clock last night, and I forgot about it.

When will I learn?

All modesty aside, I completed my end of the bargain. I scheduled the work for a time when it would be the least inconvenient. There were no problems.

Until I came to work.

Then I realized no one could actually print anything, which is disconcerting...when you're in the business of writing stuff.

The computer that records network audio wasn't working, which is also somewhat annoying when you're in the business of broadcasting.

And, of course, it's three in the morning. I know this is obvious, but there aren't a bunch of cheerful folks anywhere on earth at 3 a.m., much less in my building.

There was some scrambling, some phone calling, some fingerpointing, a little denial and a lot of improvising. There were also a few suppressed urges which might have led to felony convictions.

In the end, we survived.

It took all morning, but by the time I left the office we finally had at least discovered all the issues from being "down a few minutes" and resolved most of them.

It was a draining morning.

I drove home planning to stop by the book store, but realized I left my wallet at the house. I drove more cautiously after that discovery, figuring the way the day had been going, the odds were fairly good I would get pulled over for something and hauled away.

I made it home unmolested or arrested and got in the door. Then the phone started ringing.

A couple of eager creditors who obviously know tomorrow is pay day. I'm glad tomorrow is pay day... I'm disappointed our creditors are aware of it though.
I dealt with them in my usual up front fashion...I pushed them off on Amy.

Then I sat down at the computer and began thinking about blogging.

I stared at the screen.

.....staring
.....staring
.....staring
.....staring
.....staring


"RINGGGGGGGG"

"Oh, great who else do we owe money to?"

"Michael, it's John. As of about 15 minutes ago, Lexie and I have a new baby!"


Welcome to the world Madeline Rae!

You made my day.

Wednesday, August 27, 2003

OUT REACHED

Bet you can't eat just one!


That used to be the slogan for Lays potato chips.

I guess they abandoned that pitch around the same time as the label on the back of the bag revealed if you ate 10 chips you had consumed enough fat to feed Indonesia for a week.

As I was leaving work today, I received a copy of a congratulatory email from various corporate higher ups praising the radio station's latest rating's trend. In larger market radio we are constantly measured for audience numbers and each month we recieve the trend report. All of the numbers can be scrutinized, fractionalized, marginalized and/or rationalized depending on who needs to be impressed by them.

In reality, my pay stays the same whether ratings go up or go down. I seem to stay employed also, which probably means I work too cheap.

I don't measure my success by the ratings. If I do my job well, I know it.

I have friends in the clergy who at various times in their lives have been encouraged to win souls. Some have even had quotas of sorts. I've always found this idea scary, in part because I'm an introvert by nature and evangelism means you have to actually talk to people, but also because it conjures up images of an end game of judgment.

"I'm sorry according to the latest numbers...you're trending downward."

"Didn't make it. Damn...er...damned."

I wouldn't want to face ratings like that.

Mercifully, thanks to grace, I don't believe I will. Still I do feel compelled to be a better witness.

Perhaps a slogan?

"Bet you can't reach just one!"



Nah...I don't think slogans would work for me either..

ROLLING STONE

Moments ago workers in Montgomery, Alabama moved that controverial 5-thousand pound monument to the 10 commandments. Protestors outside the Judicial building were peaceful, but they're still hanging around. There is no truth to rumors that officials are considering chasing them off by painting the monument gold and carving it to resemble a calf.


Tuesday, August 26, 2003

REVELATION 23, 24 and 25

Walter Cronkite has come to the stunning conclusion that he's a liberal.

Louis: I'm shocked - shocked - to find gambling is going on in here!
Croupier: Your winnings, sir.
Louis: Oh, thank you very much.

I wonder how long it will take him to realize he's irrelevant?

SpongeBob SquarePants is not gay.


Det. Lennie Briscoe:
If I was kiddin' you, I'd be wearin' a fez and no pants

As long as he keeps his squarepants on, I don't really care.

Sprint has figured out the pretty flower on the cover of some phone books they distributed in parts of Florida is the same flower used to make heroin.



Miss Dorothy: Operator, you have obviously never been trapped in a Chinese opium den!

Called directory assistance lately? This is explains the service.


It's days like today when I know the end of the world isn't that near. God is having too much fun.

P.S.

10 points for Sarah.

THE GREAT MCGRIDDLE EXPERIMENT

It worked!

My shameless attempt to exploit McDonald's has at least temporarily given me THRONE status at Google if you search for "McGriddle Recipe".

If you actually came here looking for the recipe here it is:

Take an egg McMuffin...pour syrup on it.

Monday, August 25, 2003

RULE NUMBER ONE

I drove home from work a few moments ago and was briefly followed on the highway by someone driving a Hummer.



From the perspective of my rear view mirror it looked large and somewhat menacing and my thought was, "Please don't squish me." I have no problem with folks who drive big SUV's, but I do admit to feeling a bit less inclined to linger in the fast lane when they're behind me.

Especially today.

I reported on a murder this morning in which a jealous wife killed her husband by running him over with her SUV. It was your sadly typical tale of violence. The wife saw her husband come out of a bar at 2 a.m. with another woman. By the way, for future reference, if you leave a bar before closing time your chance of dying violently diminishes significantly. Anyway, the wife, laying in wait, rammed her SUV head-on into her husband's car once he and the other woman got inside of it. The husband then made another mistake. He got out to survey the damage to his car. Police say his enraged wife then ran him over, dragging him some 30 feet along a fence line. He died on route to the hospital.

It was tragic. It was stupid. I talked to the cops, a TV photographer I know, and the medical examiner before I wrote the story. I've written lots of tragic, stupid stories like this over the years. The weapons differ, but the ingredients of these demented cocktails are for the most part the same. One part jealousy, two jiggers of rage, a dash of opportunity and nine or ten too may drinks consumed by all the participants.

Right before I left the office, the police department faxed me the official report on the incident. I read it to make sure I had not made any errors in the story I had reported. My facts were correct, but there was one bit of new information. The wife had been caught close to the scene and as she was being questioned at police headquarters she was informed that her husband had died. She was in the middle of giving police a statement about the incident, but then abruptly halted. She told the interrogating officer that her husband had always told her that if she got into trouble and was asked to make a statement to police, she should refuse. She decided she should follow her husband's advice.

The advice of the man she ran over and killed about an hour earlier.

I couldn't help but wonder how this story might have been different if her husband had been more specific. If only he had prefaced his advice with, "First off honey, DON'T KILL ME!!!! Second, if you're ever questioned by police.... etc..."

I have loved. I have hated. I have been drunk. I have been jealous. I have been angry and I have been stupid.

In many ways, this is a world so close to mine, yet it is so foreign.

Thank God.

Sunday, August 24, 2003

OUTSIDE LOOKING IN

There was someone peering in on today's church service through a window.



This little spider, okay she's not so little, spun a huge and intricate web. She proved quite an attraction for our church kids. Most didn't shriek or run away. They stared with amazement. Some tried to feed her little bugs. Only a few children kept their distance.

I'm told this is an innocuous variety of spider. Our Pastor asked us to resist the temptation to knock down its web or kill it. Nature will decide its fate.

That spider is not the only creature living outside our church, but most of the others never venture as close as the windows. I wish they would.

Today we took communion.



We could have fed them, strengthened them...and they would see that we are harmless too.
Job 8:14b-15

They are leaning on a spiderweb. They cling to their home for security, but it won’t last. They try to hold it fast, but it will not endure.

COOPED UP

Wow...I have all this leisure time this morning. Amy is meeting someone after church to practice singing, so she already left. I'm driving my own car which means I don't have to be at church until everyone else shows up. Lisa has moved out and into her dorm at Baylor. Today Tiffany turns 22, but we've already had our "celebration" so presumably she'll be marking the occasion in Kerrville. Joey is back at college in Ohio.

It's just me and the three dogs here on a Sunday morning, and the dogs are asleep.

So this is what an empty nest feels like.

This is going to take some time to adjust to...



Okay. I've adjusted.